Rising Star

I have grown up (and still grow) in a staunch christian home. My parents are the kind of parents who observe the rules of being a christian family. The journey that led us to the knowledge of God and Jesus Christ as the centre of our home started with my immediate younger brother who passed away in 1997. His was a life of pain and struggle but which led us to know God. For this reason, his legacy will still live on because it is his life that made my parents-and our family- to seek God. Until now, I keep on wondering how and what it would be like to have had Bethuel Kimtai with us. Would we have been best of friends? Would have been very close? Would he be calling me 'Big Sister'? Would he be telling me of the girls he had met? His girlfriends? His struggles? This is a life that I can only have in my thoughts. I am a complete opposite of my elder sister. Sylviah, (I love her so) is so talkative and outgoing. She is a hard rock on the outside but a sweet, soft and loving woman...

Anne toyed with the idea of skipping Belinda’s birthday altogether but on second thought she decided to go. She did not want to disappoint her closest friend and besides, she thought, she had already promised her that she would show up. She dragged her tired body out of bed and headed towards the bathroom. Lately, her life seemed to have taken a turn for the worse since she broke up with Joe six months ago. Just the passing thought of him made Anne’s heart wrench with pain. She had loved him so much and missed all they did together. For once in a very long time, as she sat in the bathtub, she allowed her mind to drift away to the very first time they had met. She had travelled to her rural home that weekend but on her way back she had been stranded at the Taxi Park because there were no more vehicles going towards her direction. Though it was a bit late, vehicles usually plied that route up to as late as midnight. So, when she alighted at the Park and realized that some of the...

As I am writing this post, I feel like David felt in Psalm 13: O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way? How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand? Turn and answer me, O Lord my God! Restore the sparkle to my eyes or I will die. Don’t let my enemies gloat saying, “We have defeated him”! Don’t let them rejoice at my downfall. But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me I will sing to the Lord Because he is good to me My heart is wrenched within me. It is twisted and broken. My eyes are filled with tears. I do not want to be strong any more. Not for myself and not for any one. I cannot take in the pain that I feel any more. My world is crushing down. My faith is wavering. The fabric that has been holding my life seems to be failing.   I ask myself: Have I lost the way? Did I do somethi...

Today, I want to testify. I want to testify of the Lord's goodness in my life. Indeed, when He says be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth in Psalm 46:10, it is best not to doubt Him but wholly believe Him.  I agree that without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him (Hebrews 11:6). In 2012, I deliberately grew more prayerful and drew closer to God. I was seeking a deeper relationship with God. Many are the times i knelt in my house and cried to God. The more I prayed, though, the more situations and circumstances seemed to remain the same. I wondered why God seemed so quiet yet I was making all these prayers. I remember people would speak positives into my life concerning certain issues but the situation around me was different.  I, once in awhile, would ask them what was taking God so long to answer me....

It is true what they say.... If a man wants you, absolutely nothing will stop him from getting you. On the other hand, if a man does not want you, absolutely nothing will make him stay. A time comes when a person  enters into your life and you get to understand why it did not or could not work with other people. Sometimes, your perspective of people changes for the better if you only gave them a chance to be who they truly are. People are much more than the physical. The spiritual and the mental matters too. Love runs the world. When you stop fretting about love, it finally finds you. The person you will finally end up with or marry, is  someone you never expected. These are valuable lessons i have learnt in the last couple of days.

This blog has offered me an excellent opportunity to rant and rave about issues around me. In my years on this earth and the confusing process of self-discovery, I have come to know one thing about me: I am no struggler. Severally, I have been told by acquaintances and colleagues (not friends), that in life, you sometimes have to go out of your way to get what you want. I have been told i have to fight for my place in society. I have to make people feel my presence. In as much as that might be what it is in some instances, I do not like push overs nor being a push over. You want my services? Tell me, I will offer them. Oh, you like me that way? Show it but do not give me mixed signals. You like what I do? That is great, just do not take advantage of me. Wow, Brendah, you are such a good friend. Well, thank you but do not take my being good for granted. You want to give me something? Do so but just do not think I will break me in order to get it. I am no Miss Two-Goodie Shoes. I w...

In the past few days, Mt Elgon has been in the news for all the bad reasons. For those who do not know, Mt. Elgon is my motherland. It is my home. I am a proud Sabaot. For many years, Mt. Elgon and its people have been marginalized. Some have even said that nothing good has ever come out of this beautiful land. Yes, we were very much affected by the Sabaot Land Defence Force menace. Many people lost their lives and families were scattered. We still feel the effects of this Force till now. Nevertheless, Mt. Elgon is a beautiful place. This is attested by its lush greenery, undulating hills, its forests with its wildlife, the cattle gently grazing in farms, crops dancing gracefully in the cool breeze and its peaceful people. Sabaot's are very accommodating. There is always a sense of freshness and newness when i visit my home in Kimobo. There is neither pollution of the air or unnecessary noise around. Some have said that Sabaot's are backwards. I have met people who have bee...